dam, i feel lyk the world is useless. i feel lyk my life itself is useless.... wads the use of living if everything i do is so.... under average. results suck, every time tio scold. attitude sux. always dun study. why the heck m i living a useless life lyk this? ill jus b another useless guy taking up space in the earth in the future..





but if it is gonna b this way, then let it be. BUT IM DETERMINED 2 CHANGE. i dont wanna live a useless, fucked up live lyk tat. i gotta change and i WILL.






starting off by studying or at least doing work everyday. been having steady progress in this segment. today did my english tuition work. 1 compre + summary. slow n stead wins the race. and i realised smth. if i jus chiong 2 doing lyk 2 papers on my first few times, then i obviously will b demoralised and eventually giv up..






k, move on to paying MORE attention in class. well for the past 3 terms this was 1 of the major reasons 2 me being lyk a hobo asshole hu flunks all his exams.





will b tough, especially for 2 period lessons. but i mus try. cannot giv up so easily. mus do my best lyk the scout law. "a scout has courage in all difficulties"


"suffering is only temporary"





its only 3 more weeks to EOY. its ONLY 3 weeks of sufferng. then after that got 2.5 months of ply. ok dun get carried away. focus~




3 weeks : make or break. if i pass, then good for me. i get promoted. if i fail, im fucked. my life is pretty mch over. so, a really important time of my life. i even promised 2 stop plying soccer every sat/sun jus 2 get my studies straight.





MUST PRODUCE GOOD RESULTS.